Ruth Sahanaya - Kaulah Segalanya
Mungkin hanya Tuhan
Yang tahu segalanya
Apa yang ku inginkan
Di saat-saat ini
Kau tak 'kan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya
( korus )
Kaulah segalanya bagi ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang
Kau tak 'kan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya
( korus )
Kaulah segalanya bagi ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang
Kaulah segalanya untuk ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
bile nak obatkan hati saye? -_-'
Monday, November 09, 2009
layout blog
Sunday, November 08, 2009
gile kentang blog saye masuk???
Panas
ni.sebabnya, kesian dia demam. Kesian saye sebab jaga dia demam.dia
merap aje.xnk org lain.saye dok dukung dia dan bangun beberapa kali
malam tadi. Oh adik sayang...cikyong ngantuk...
pelamin dan bertunang.
uncle lagi best dari yeop atau chor.

Saturday, November 07, 2009
saye di kampung.
Friday, November 06, 2009
mimpi yang bukan mimpi ngeri.
kasih dia.
i am awake. now.
PJJ yang bukan pendidikan jasmani.
kata kata
harimau kata, tanah itu nyata.
ikan kata, laut itu misteri.
saya kata, dia yang terindah, nyata dan misteri.
dia. yang saya sayang.
terima kasih.
selamat malam. mimpi manis. tidur ketat.
(T_oo_T) <----tiyu diye unye puyak!
Thursday, November 05, 2009
corolla sedan with gps.

corolla sedan with gps.
selamat pengantin baru...
tak kena. tak rasa. dah kena. dah rasa.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
the countdown begins.
hati tak sabar.
hati berbunga.
nantikan, kedatangan ku..
up up uprising.
pastu gitar and semua la.
especially the intro.
pastu suara dia..wah...sungguh menggoda.
*drool*
Uprising - Muse
Paranoia is in bloom,
The PR transmissions will resume,
They'll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around
(So come on)
Another promise, another scene,
Another packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed,
And all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on)
They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
(So come on)
Interchanging mind control,
Come let the revolution take it's toll,
If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,
You'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on)
Rise up and take the power back,
It's time the fat cats had a heart attack,
You know that their time's coming to an end,
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend
They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
So come on
They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
it is what we call LIFE.
arezie_marshad: kejap je ek
arezie_marshad: aku dh dpt anak
myYM: ak ah
myYM: tuh la
arezie_marshad is typing...
arezie_marshad: ko bile lg
myYM: pejam celik pejam celik
myYM: ko dpt anak
myYM: aku dpt master
myYM: life path lain2 kan
myYM: aku?
myYM: tak tahu la
a conversation with a friend. Aku kenal azie masa sama2 kerja di UIA as RO. Azie was working under dr shamzani and i was working with prof najib. But both of us were stations at the al-bukhary room. Duduk dlm bilik tu berdua aja, we became close in no time. And now when i reminisce back everything, on how she gets close to her husband and they went out and when i was in Sydney they got married and now she has a girl...life tells me something.
Lakaran hidup dan jalan ni berbeza. Atas lorong hidup yang dipilih. Azie pilih berkeluarga, and she gets it. I remember how determined she was to get danial. And to marry him, and she gets what she wanted. And me, i have no one at that time. And so i set my mind to further my study and get a master degree. I have no regret for what i choose in life, but saying this, it is just how The Almighty sets human life dengan kuasaNya.
I have what i choose to have, and now i have to accept the takdir that i had choose. I have to get a grip, pull back my strength and do my phd. Like it or not, i have to. I just have to put aside all those envy-ness and adoring others life of having families, and focus on life. This is the path that i choose myself to begin with.
On the other hand, i always pray for my friends happiness, no matter what path they choose. Obviously, they're happily married. While i was writing this entry, i was buzz-ed by fina, a friend i knew back then when i was in UDA. Yeah, i was with UDA's SPP program for 2 months before deciding to join U***. She has a boy now. Laili and Wana got engaged. Yana got married with one of the officer's son that handled us during the orientation, en zainal. Ini kes bapak berkenan buat menantu. :p and zura and rosli akan kahwin 15hb. Siapa sangka both of them akan together after SPP tamat? 16 orang diserap masuk ke UDA. 2 orang tolak, dan 14 lain dapat kerja lain. Wawa jadi cikgu di Sabah, last time i heard, she's pregnant.
Oh well..tiba2 sentimental. Dengar cerita kawan2, dan apa yang diorang ada, boleh bikin envy, but thinking back on what aku ada, I am thankful, bersyukur with what I have. And hopefully semangat aku akan kembali, focus aku kembali juga untuk teruskan jalan yang aku pilih ni.
AMIN.
Monday, November 02, 2009
Kenapa saya nak pergi Sydney cepat-cepat...
Pernah dulu aku dreaming nak kawen at the age of 21. Or 22. And i don't mind being student and a wife. Mak pun sentiasa ok with it. But back then, i was someone else. I never had any serious relationship. Having said that, aku boyish, kasar, anddddd ego. Super ego. Never admit perasaan aku. and always in denial.
What's with the intro?
Well, i am in need of going back to Sydney. Like for 3 years? Last week pergi MSD and pick up FGL. And sis tu cakap, bos pesan suruh apply local uni. Muka dah biru2. No no no...i would fight my way to come back to Sydney. Don't ask me why not UK or Europe or Japan. I have my reasons. If i care enough or in the mood, i'll blog about it. But for now, Sydney it is.
Anyway, tak sabar nak ke Sydney. I just need to get away from Malaysia. Pressure tahap takleh blah. It was easy back then when i was in Sydney. Macam tak ada gap between undergrad and postgrad and you just don't feel much pressure.
Mesti confuse on kind of pressure yang i am facing kan? Kahwin la. Apa lagi.
It is so easy putting up a high face and gelak2 and cracking jokes about it. Tapi dalam hati, terasa pressure even though mulut cakap tak.
Why?
Because i am a family person. I love being at home. Home ye, bukan house. Home. Tak kisah la mana2, as long as i am being loved and giving love. Itu one issue la. But the point is, i am a family person. So, bila berpuluh kali kena tanya bila nak kawen and all...banyak2 kumpul jadi mcm bukit/gunung..berat lah hati ni. I know the situation, and i understand perfectly the situation and condition way before i am in it. It was easy in Sydney...really.
Tapi here, it was almost like a must.
Pffft.
But i am lucky because i have parents yang super very understanding with the situation and my condition and tak put the pressure. Thinking back, maybe it is one of the reason i become reluctant nak keluar and hang out with people ke ape. Pergi wedding kawan pun, macam malas. Coping with indirect pressure yang pressuring me indirectly lagi susah sebab tak tahu nak hilang kan macam mana. Escapism is the bestest way buat masa ni.
Lagi pressure because i am a baby lover, bila bersepah beratur berjujuk la cousin yang bersalin, and kawan2 yang pregnant and melahirkan...kind of pissed me off. Just stop asking. Answering to their question is one thing, but asking it in the first place is enough annoying. Dah la secara indirect giving me pressure and making me envy with it...envy is another thing. Plus, aku bukan jenis kejar career pny orang. If i were given a choice, 10 kali lagi aku pilih family.
Jadi, kesimpulan nye, aku nak cabut lari cepat2. So that i am being spared from being asked or pressured indirectly regarding this matter and i can live my life mcm it is not the most important thing in life. At least, for few years lagi.
By the way, on the other hand, i kind of feels uncomfortable writing this posting. I am writing it for myself but i hope it will not affect anyone else because this is my rambling. My rants. I am not requesting anything, just pouring out my unintentional ramblings.










