it is what we call LIFE.

arezie_marshad: kejap je ek

arezie_marshad: aku dh dpt anak

myYM: ak ah

myYM: tuh la

arezie_marshad is typing...

arezie_marshad: ko bile lg

myYM: pejam celik pejam celik

myYM: ko dpt anak

myYM: aku dpt master

myYM: life path lain2 kan

myYM: aku?

myYM: tak tahu la

a conversation with a friend. Aku kenal azie masa sama2 kerja di UIA as RO. Azie was working under dr shamzani and i was working with prof najib. But both of us were stations at the al-bukhary room. Duduk dlm bilik tu berdua aja, we became close in no time. And now when i reminisce back everything, on how she gets close to her husband and they went out and when i was in Sydney they got married and now she has a girl...life tells me something.

Lakaran hidup dan jalan ni berbeza. Atas lorong hidup yang dipilih. Azie pilih berkeluarga, and she gets it. I remember how determined she was to get danial. And to marry him, and she gets what she wanted. And me, i have no one at that time. And so i set my mind to further my study and get a master degree. I have no regret for what i choose in life, but saying this, it is just how The Almighty sets human life dengan kuasaNya.

I have what i choose to have, and now i have to accept the takdir that i had choose. I have to get a grip, pull back my strength and do my phd. Like it or not, i have to. I just have to put aside all those envy-ness and adoring others life of having families, and focus on life. This is the path that i choose myself to begin with.

On the other hand, i always pray for my friends happiness, no matter what path they choose. Obviously, they're happily married. While i was writing this entry, i was buzz-ed by fina, a friend i knew back then when i was in UDA. Yeah, i was with UDA's SPP program for 2 months before deciding to join U***. She has a boy now. Laili and Wana got engaged. Yana got married with one of the officer's son that handled us during the orientation, en zainal. Ini kes bapak berkenan buat menantu. :p and zura and rosli akan kahwin 15hb. Siapa sangka both of them akan together after SPP tamat? 16 orang diserap masuk ke UDA. 2 orang tolak, dan 14 lain dapat kerja lain. Wawa jadi cikgu di Sabah, last time i heard, she's pregnant.

Oh well..tiba2 sentimental. Dengar cerita kawan2, dan apa yang diorang ada, boleh bikin envy, but thinking back on what aku ada, I am thankful, bersyukur with what I have. And hopefully semangat aku akan kembali, focus aku kembali juga untuk teruskan jalan yang aku pilih ni.

AMIN.